shady side of the moon

As an experiment, i've taken nearly double my normal dose of dexedrine today (note that i have been on my current dose since grade school, meaning that i've essentially been reducing the effective dose by not scaling it up with my body size.)  Interestingly it completely failed to get me out of bed earlier than usual this morning, but i have since attended a class and can confirm that there is definitely a difference.

You know that episode of futurama where Fry decides to drink a hundred cups of coffee and gets increasingly jittery until he finally drinks number one hundred, then suddenly he's completely calm and the world is moving in slow motion?  That is kind of like the effect that powerful stimulates have on some people with ADHD.  I feel very calm, very focused and sort of detached.  I can comfortably sit completely still without stimming or fidgeting in some way (though when i try to focus on studying or whatever i start stimming again XP).  Most importantly for my purposes just now, i can sit down and read my densely written biology textbook like a novel and simply absorb information.

"The ascending aorta branches into the left and right coronary arteries, which supply blood flow to the heart.  The left coronary artery further branches into the anterior interventricular artery and the transverse artery; the right branches into the posterior interventricular artery and the circumflex artery.  As it angles the ascending aorta becames the arch of the aorta, from which come three major arteries; the brachiocornal(brachio-something anyway), the left common carotid and the left subclavical.  The brachiowhatever branches into the right common carotid and right subclavicle, which further..."

And so on and so forth.  There are a whole lot of arteries.  It helps that many of them are named in some meaningful fashion (carotid = neck, and the subclavicle goes under the clavicle bone.)

Anyway.  I wouldn't take this kind of dose every day but if i really need to study or focus on something it helps.  Downsides: if anyone tries to talk to me in the hall or something i will stare at them like a startled fish for several seconds before going 'hello?' and then probably wandering away in mid-conversation.  Also this stuff is kind of appetite-destroying so i'll need to remind myself to eat food.  We shall also have to wait and see how well i manage to sleep tonight.  Oh well.  At the least I should do much better on my next bio test after this.